Thisisfactnotfictionforthefirsttimeinyears.

Wed, 21 Jun 2006 20:56:17 GMT

So in the last four years of living in Homewood I have learned that friends don't last, you can't count on anyone, never get your hopes up, most people are fake and that everyday is a living nightmare...It feels good to know that I'll be out of this hell hole in a couple days.

Tue, 02 May 2006 01:01:27 GMT

So this is my first piece of art since August so I was kind of just testing some stuff out..maybe I'll do more advanced stuff soon.

:Without You:

Mon, 20 Mar 2006 06:22:28 GMT

OK so I haven't really updated in a while and A LOT has happened this weekend so I figured I'd fill everyone that reads this in which is probably no one.

So Friday I had track practice but I left that early because I had to put something into motion. Then Friday night after doing a lot of work to get it to happen I asked this amazing girl to prom and she said yes. So I guess I'll be going to my first dance ever which happens to be my last dance. Saturday morning I had the Co-Ed Invite and HF pretty much dominated everyone and I managed to win the 3200. Now my perfect weekend came to a hault after I checked my messages and talked to Sam. I found out Dave Dedo died and that just put me in shock. I've been pretty depressed about it but I'm looking at the positive that he was a really great guy who I was lucky enough to be friends with and now he is in a better place. It just makes me realize that I should never take any day of my life for granted because it could end at any moment. Oh and I had work till Midnight on Sunday which sucked but oh well I'll survive.

R.I.P. Dave Dedo

Sat, 18 Mar 2006 23:07:42 GMT

Friday night was the best...this morning was really good but what i just found out has ruined my weekend

Sun, 05 Mar 2006 04:33:45 GMT

I need to get my head in the Game..err. Meet..err Race..blah whatever you wanna call it.

Tue, 28 Feb 2006 01:04:21 GMT

So this weekend I was at Penn State and I'm offically going there....

Today was my birthday and it sucked for the most part BUT adam did buy me starbucks this morning AND annie made the most amazing cake ever...it was yummy but was gone after 2 periods

Sat, 11 Feb 2006 20:50:36 GMT

So last night I was driving home and someone hit my car...fucked up the front corner now I'm out $500 and i hit my head on the side window so I saw the trainer today and he said i got a really mild concussion since I can't remember what happened. I had a track meet today and coach told me to take it easy so I finished in third doing practically nothing. Tomorrow is O.A.R. and it is going to be awesome. Oh yeah and after the person hit me they drove off so it was a hit n run...bastards

Sat, 04 Feb 2006 23:16:29 GMT

So I finally have decided to update.

School has been straight. My new schedule is a lot better. I am doing better in all my classes except Physics, which keeps getting a lot harder. It is my only ‘challenging’ class. My new math teacher rocks…noble sucked. Snowflake is in a couple weeks and I’m regretting doing it. It is so much work and these mandatory meetings that I did not know about every Wednesday is interfering with track. My counter-part seems kind of cool so it could have been worse like Kara can’t even get in touch with hers.

Track has been going alright I guess. The first week I was killing everyone. It was just me and Lloyd running together. Then this week I was beating most people on some days and then losing on others. I am starting to lose motivation. Maybe it wasn’t meant for me to do track. Today we had mile repeats and me and Lloyd did them in the 5:30s while everyone else was going 6 minutes or more. Even though I want to do the 4x800 I think I’m going to run the 1600 since I know out of the people we have I’m one of the best we have at it but I really want to see the 4x800 go down state. Maybe I’ll do both. I only have to do one event a meet because of my ankle, which will be nice instead of burning out on races. I kind of want to quit track.

I feel like I’m getting distant from all my friends because of track and track has only started so it’s only going to get worse.

So turnabout is in a few weeks and I’m not going. I’ll be at Penn State for 4 or 5 days the last weekend of February. It should be pretty fun. I get to meet the coach and I’m going to check out their track team. I kind of want to run there but I also don’t want all that work. I’ll wait to see how track season goes this year.

Oh yeah I hate the month of February.

Wed, 25 Jan 2006 02:05:41 GMT

I guess maybe there is a chance that I might actually possible be semi-good at track.

Sun, 22 Jan 2006 02:28:52 GMT

Last night was the track retreat for seniors and juniors. It was more of a lock-in then retreat. After last night I realized I dislike 90% of the team. It just isn't the same as cross country. I was the only guy from distance which made me stand out. So track offically starts Monday and I'm kind of dreading it because the season is so long. Maybe I just won't do track and keep working.

Thu, 19 Jan 2006 22:01:46 GMT

Finals are over...second semester begins Monday and Track begins Monday...

and I get an awesome new schedule for next semester

1 - Honors Pre-Calculus
2 - AP Humanities 2
3 - AP Physics C
4 - Independent Study Java
5 - Computer Services Aide
6 - Computer Services Aide
7 - Independent Study Java

4 thru 7 = blow off but looks good for college =P

Wed, 18 Jan 2006 17:27:28 GMT

3 down...1 to go...and that one is the dreaded Math

Wed, 18 Jan 2006 02:37:05 GMT

2 down...2 to go

Tue, 17 Jan 2006 13:02:05 GMT

Tuesday
AP Humanities 2 - Screwed
AP Physics C - Screwed

Wednesday
AP Computer Science - Easy

Thursday
Pre-Calc - Screwed

Sat, 14 Jan 2006 17:53:20 GMT

Last night was fun...finals are next week...then I'll be a second semester senior. Track starts in 1 week...the month of febuary is depressing. Turnabout is next month but I doubt I'll end up going...I just ran a lot and did a bunch of stairs...hopefully find something to do tonight...jewel sucks...2006 has been blah so far....aaron and gen go back to college which sucks...

Year In Reflection

Sat, 31 Dec 2005 20:24:03 GMT

Well well well it looks like it is New Years Eve. For the last two years I have made obnoxiously long posts summarizing the year so I'm back continuing that. Last year I was right and only three people read this so I expect only two or three again this year.

...The Final Boring Post of 2005, By Another Boring Person...

I rang in the New Year at Garrett's house which was pretty cool. It wasn't really anything special though and I don't remember it.

As usual the first half of the year is always filled up with track season. This year Aaron joined track which was pretty cool because it gave me someone new to run with. I started out the season really good but then I lost motivation and just stopped caring and ended the season not too good. I just couldn't stand the coach and I didn't see a point in trying hard. For once I didn't get hurt but that was probably due to not trying. This year is going to be better for sure because I am actually trying and good this year. *Now I just can't get hurt*

The end of the school year was kind of depressing because I had a lot of friends that were seniors that were graduating. I never realized how many seniors I knew till the end of the school year came when all of them graduated. I remember going to six-flags with Liz, Gen and Aaron at the end of the year and Aaron had so much fun but it got so cold. That was my first time going to six-flags and it was amazing. I definitely need to go back next year.

I still have the same crappy just I had last year except I think I hate it more. We have gone through a dozen bosses this year because some steal money and others get transferred. All the good ones leave and are replaced with old people and racist people. I think on a list of the top ten things of 2005 work would be in the top 3. It used to be fun working with Mike, Fox and Neal but Fox transferred to another department and they refuse to work me and Mike together because they want to spread us out so we can pick up for slack on different shifts. At least I have less then a year left at Jewel.

One of the biggest changes on my life this year was how dedicated I became to running at the beginning of the summer. Gen and I started running together every day over the summer. We met at six am everyday...no one else would do that and we both improved so much. I ran a 5k race at the beginning of July and I crushed so many people which was a first. This all came crashing down towards the middle of July when I became deathly sick. I had to take it easy on running a lot because my health was getting worse. It started out with whooping cough and then leads into an infection in my throat, vocal chords, nose and eyes. Sounds fun right? Pretty much everything in my body was infected. I've been in and out of doctors every month for the past five months and I am still constantly going to do them. I think I have been on every anti-biotic that exists. I need to get some type of surgery but I would miss almost two weeks of school and three weeks of track which I can not let happen.

Once cross country officially started I was not able to run in a race for the first half of the season because McCarthy didn't want to risk me getting worse health wise. When I finally got back my first race I finished 6th out of 7th on the team. This was my first varsity race ever in cross country and I had no idea who to run with since I was out for a month or so. Things turned around after that and I knew who I could keep up with and I slowly worked my way up the team. The week of regionals I thought felt pain in my shins so I was hurting come regionals but really after regionals I found out my fibula was broken. It was not fun running regionals with a broken fibula. I ended up taking 3rd on the team. I know I could have done better which kind of disappointed me. Going into the season we had such a good team but then it all fell apart at regionals. Kyle broke his foot, I broke my fibula, and Clifton was injured. Too bad I can't say it will be different next year. The whole team is graduating this year except for my mini-me Arun. After regionals I had to take two months off of running. I only started running again a couple weeks ago.

Going into the school year I was worried that I would have too hard of a workload which is true to a point considering I am a senior and should be taking it easy. The only class I do not like is Pre-Calc with Mr. Noble and that is because I feel he is a horrible teacher. I am switching to a different teacher next semester which should make things a lot better. My best class is Aiding for Computer Services. I do nothing but sit on the computer and eat in that class. Actually I lied I have another class I do not like and that is Humanities. Once again it is because of the teacher. She teaches it like it is a Lit/Comp class when I wanted Humanities! In two weeks I will be a second semester senior which will rock even though I am still going to have to try kind of.

Winter break has been very interesting. I have been running everyday with Gen which is a plus. I had to work a lot the first week of break but then I took vacation time so I wouldn't have to work the second week of break. I am so much happier when I do not have to work except I get bored a little more since I have a lot more free time. The first Monday Night/Tuesday Morning of break I got picked up by the cops which was very interesting. Who doesn't like being taken to the police station at one am to call their parents? I got off really easily that night. I've been hanging out a lot with Todd, ARehn and Mel a lot over break and calling a bunch of random people from Mel's phone.

So I'm done with applying to colleges and now I just have to make up my mind on where I want to go. As of right now I am going to Penn State which is a really good school but incredibly far away. It will be nice in a way to get away from everyone but yet pretty much everyone is staying in Illinois so they will all stay close and I will drift away. I still might go to University of Illinois but I'm not too sure about it anymore. It is nice not having all the stress of getting into college anymore I just need to work on scholarships and stuff.

This year was a really dead year for me when it came to Art. I just couldn't get motivated or anytime I did get motivated I wouldn't be able to finish the piece to my likings and just delete it. Hopefully next semester since I don't have as much to worry about I'll be able to get more stuff done. I really miss doing art and some people thought I was half decent at it. It was a good way for me to express my emotions and random stuff.

I haven't really hung out with one group of friends this year. It seems like it is always changing from week to week. At the beginning of the year I hung out with Aaron and Dallas a lot. Then I started to hangout with Nick and Aaron a lot over the summer and at the start of the school year I've been hanging out with Todd, Robby, AJ, Myles, Mel and them.

My main man and one of my best friends for the year was Aaron. We got into so much trouble this year it isn't even funny. I probably would have quit track if Aaron didn't join because I would have just been that bored. It sucks that we don't talk anymore since what happened last week which is a really stupid reason. It was fun chilling with him all summer and the one time I visited him at Marquette. We wasted so much money this summer on Fireworks which I happened to just find more of when I was cleaning my room. They never seem to run out.

I probably would have quit running for sure this school year if it wasn't for Gen. I used to suck because I never wanted to work hard when it came to running but because of her she forced me to actually try and become good. I had no idea who she was until she started going out with Aaron and we have gotten really close over the summer even though we don't really hang out that much. Surprisingly with all the running I did with her I think I was with her more then my best friend/her boyfriend...which is kind of weird.

Me and Dallas kind of drifted apart this year which is kind of sad because we used to be really close. Now that he has a girlfriend I never see him which sucks. Maybe next year we will become better friends again before we split for college. Ever since me and Dallas haven't been hanging out as much it seems that me and Todd hang out more. The three of us used to hang out a lot but it just seems like that doesn't really happen now. I can't even remember when the three of us hung out last.

I was hoping this year would be different for me and Sam. Two years ago we were best friends and then last year we kind of lost touch but at the end of last year we got close again. Now it seems like we have just completely gone our separate ways. We were going to hang out over break but since I don't drink we wouldn't have had anything to do. It is pretty sad to know that you can't hang out with someone just because there is nothing to do with that person besides drinking.

Shawn's been a total dumbass this year and I don't even want to get into that.

This past week I have been hanging out with Nick a lot more. We hung out almost everyday over the summer but then I started Cross Country and he had Soccer so we didn’t really have much free time. The guy always seems to have something to do which is always a plus.

Now the girl that proved my theory wrong...well first off last year I had this theory that I couldn't really keep a friend for over a year and that was pretty much true up until I met Annie. I don't know what I would have done this year without her. She has kept me out of soooo much trouble. I'd probably be in jail for doing something stupid. I've gotten to know her a lot better this year. I wish I could spend New Years Eve with her tonight but that won't be happening which sucks. She has been there for me so many times this year and talked me into doing Snowball and Snowflake. It was awesome that even though I don't ever hangout with people during the week after cross country practice I was always able to see her for fifteen minutes. Kicking off Spring Break with you at the O.A.R. Concert was probably one of the best things to happen all year. I still find it funny that my parents like you more then me and think you are a good influence on me. Too summarize it. Annie’s Amazing and I'd be lost without her.

So it is New Years which means New Years Resolutions. Last year my resolutions were to keep a friend for a whole year...thanks to Annie I kept that one =). Another one was to not get injured in track or cross country. Obviously that didn't happen even though I still had an amazing cross country season. The last one was to go to a dance. Well that didn't happen. Go figure. I tried to think of New Years Resolutions for next year and I came up with two. First off I really want to go to a dance. Maybe I'll get asked to Turnabout? Second I want to go down state for track. I spent the last four years of my life based around running. I want something to show from it.

Alright, so I took this survey last year and I figured I'd do it again.

PAST/FUTURE

1. 7 years ago: 5th grade, I
had this awesome teacher but I don't remember her name. Once again I have a
horrible memory and forget everything.

2. 4 years ago: 8th grade, kind of sucked. I don't really remember much
of it.

3. 3 years ago: 9th grade, this was a wild year with it being the first
year of high school and meeting so many new people. A big year for partying for
me.

4. 1 hour ago: Started this thing and listening to O.A.R.

5. Tomorrow: Maybe I will get to see Annie but it is New Years Day so I
will be sleeping in.

6. College: Penn State or University of Illinois

Was 2005 better then 2004? Definitely.

This is going to be my first New Years in 5 years that I have not drank at =)...I guess this is the last time you will see me post for 2005....I'll be back in 2006, hopefully. Later

~Matt

Sun, 25 Dec 2005 06:05:46 GMT

So now it's Christmas...

Sun, 25 Dec 2005 03:20:49 GMT

Christmas is in 2 hours and 40 minutes.

Tue, 20 Dec 2005 08:02:52 GMT

After the events of tonight I think I'd be best off going to Penn State even though I'd miss her more then words could describe.

Mon, 19 Dec 2005 04:47:56 GMT

So it's winter break and I'm home. I could have gone to the Fall out boy concert tonight but I had to work which sucked. I'm running again which is awesome especially since Gen is in town which means I have a running buddy. Aaron's home but I doubt I will ever see him because of Gen grr which sucks. I got accepted into Penn State and I kind of really want to go but I don't want to go because of one person. I can't make up my mind about anything. I only have to work 2 days all of winter break which is pretty sweet.

Mon, 12 Dec 2005 22:59:06 GMT

Ok so I went to the doctor to get my MRI read. I found out that my Fibula was broken. It's a bone in the lower leg. He is pretty sure I broke it while running regionals which would explain why I haven't been able to run ever since then. It looks like it has healed on its own this time because I haven't done any strenuous activity in 2 months. I can start running now; I just can't rush into things.

Sat, 10 Dec 2005 22:32:18 GMT

My ankle feels amazing...this week I'm determined to be cleared to run for the first time in TWO MONTHS!! Wohoo

Thu, 08 Dec 2005 22:02:58 GMT

lol as the post below says I haven't had full days this week...well today was supposed to be the only one but I ended up going in late to do stuff...so looks like monday - monday arent full days...saweet

Tue, 06 Dec 2005 22:54:19 GMT

Mon - Left school early for ankle check-up.
Tue - Came to school late due to stuff.
Wed - Late start day.
Thu - Full day..wow
Fri - Going to school late because of MRI.
Mon - Going to school late because of ankle check-up.

wow I don't do full days of school well at all...

Sat, 03 Dec 2005 05:01:56 GMT

A crappy Friday to end an amazing week.